no matter how far the distance, how many new people i meet, and how much time has gone by, the pain still resonates
it's unfair that your name was sprung on me in the midst of the movie.
they say time will help to forget. but it's not true. even with the effort expounded in not remembering, the memories are dredged up unknowingly, abruptly. cuddy saying goodbye to house, touching his face and looking into his eyes for the last time. it is still very much capable of bringing up tears.
and that is why it is selfish of me to have him wait, because even i myself do not dare set a timeline for all this to end, and for me to be able to start loving and trusting again. i choose flings and short casual relationships now, because having to care and then having to hurt again is agony i don't want to go through. less complications, less commitment, less heartache.